My name is Crystal O. I own a new business that assists casinos in their marketing efforts to poker players. I also play poker – mostly small stakes here and there, as well as the occasional high stakes tournament. Between the business and the poker, I contribute a modest amount to the family income. Yet, my husband and I still struggle financially to raise our family. So, after reading Jackie Lapin’s book “The Art of Conscious Creation” I was committed to using her techniques to help our finances.
Every February the bill arrives for my daughter’s school tuition and every February my husband and I struggle to pay it. This year was no exception. Coincidentally, every February the local casino hosts one of its biggest poker tournaments of the year. This year I had only two choices — either come up with the money to pay for her tuition or place her in public school, which I was determined not to do. Now, even though I play poker I do not consider myself a gambler. To put my newfound techniques to the test would be a true challenge. But, I was determined to create the money I needed.
As I handed over the money for the tournament entry fee I felt a profound sense of guilt and shame. After losing the first hand I played, my instinct was to play ultra-conservative and pray that good cards would come to me. Doubt began to overwhelm me. I felt weak and scattered. Then, I remembered the techniques on creation. I remembered that doubt is the killer of dreams; that it was up to me to pull myself out of this state. The words, “Play as though your life depends on it” snapped into my mind.
“Play as though my life depends on it!”
"Yes", I thought. That’s it! I began to pretend that every decision I made in that game was a life decision. I said it over and over, letting it sink into my psyche. Suddenly I felt light, strong, and very alert — as though a lion was stalking me and I was walking through dark woods. My hearing and sight became more acute. The adrenaline was flowing and I felt alive. I won the very next hand I picked up! I started to feel confident. It was then that the good cards began to flow my way. With every hand I won, my faith was renewed. I repeated the mantra that my life depended on each decision. Soon I found myself sitting at the final table expecting to win each hand I played and I Did!
That night I walked away with third place and over $10,000, the exact amount I needed to pay my daughter’s tuition. It wasn’t magic or luck. It was hard work to keep my mind focused on the correct outcome. It was a chore not to doubt, not to feel guilty, to concentrate on feeling good and positive about every decision. But I did it and I’m much more confident now that I have the tools I can use to create.